Saturday, May 17, 2008

open up ur mind

ok... supposed to mit up today but got canvelled...
haiz...
so i went home and typed this...

i realli realli love this song...
one of saiyuki's ending song..

open up your mind...
and turn it into a songfic...
though the plot is a bit weird...
haha...
just trying to think of a story to link to this song lyrics...

aniway enjoy...
and listened to the song!!! realli touching though it's in jap...

The room was dark. Not a single lamp switched on. Shadows were moving as the trees outside the windows swayed. Curtains were floating as wind blew harshly on them.
Raindrops fell on the open windows. It was raining. Again.

Even when it seems that nothing can go right
and you want to just give up,


She opened her eyes as she stood up. She had not slept. Her mind was too crowed with thoughts for her to sleep. She sat by the window quietly. She did not care if the room was too dark or if the rain had fallen in through the windows. She did not care if raindrops had fallen on her, soaking her clothes.

She did not care about anything. She was so tired. Mountains of pressure suffocated her. She did not want to care let them do their jobs of making her fall. The dark room was her world. Her world was dark, gloomy and alone.

if you close your eyes,
you can see the world from your heart.


She closed her eyes in defeat as lightning flashed before her. Memories flooded into her mind as despair gripped her heart. If she closed her eyes, would she forget everything that happened? Would she find another way to look at the things that had happened?

She just wished for someone who cares. She just wished for someone to be able to help her. She just wanted understanding. Her friends. Her family. Just someone to listen to her.

In this world when life can be so tough
You must be strong
Just believe in yourself and don't you fear
So open up your mind and close your eyes
Take another look from the other side

She opened her eyes slowly as she looked out of the window towards the dark. Maybe somewhere, in the dark, she can find someone. She knew she had to be strong. She knew she should not cry. She knew them all. But it was so hard to be strong. So hard to stop the tears that flowed.

She only hoped to have someone who would listen. She only hoped to have her words taken seriously. She wanted someplace to belong. Someplace where she would be accepted for her true self. Not accepted as a person with a smiling mask. Was it so wrong to rant? Was it so wrong to voice her displeasure?

She had to depend on herself. She understood that. but it would be too lonely. It would be too fake. It would not be real.
Even on a lonely night, when you wander afraid,
you may be alone now, but
your feet can take you however far you want to go, so

Yet, she had to depend on herself. Believe in herself. She had to. One day, she might found people who care. People who allowed her to be herself. People who understood and not judged anything she said out of spite. People she could throw a temper and apologized and they understood. People she belonged.

But till then she just had to walk. She had to take steps. Small steps. Big steps. She just had to hold on…

Just hold on tight, because if you close your eyes,
look inside yourself, there's a shining light there.
Yes, I want you to believe in everything.
You can take another look from the other side

She looked out the window. It was strange but she saw a star. Even when it was raining, she saw the star clearly. It was shining brightly.

In the midst of all the darkness, there was one shining light. Maybe she could find one shining light in her world. She heard a saying before. Everyone has at least a strength. A light that would shine in darkness. Did she have one? If she looked inside herself, would she find one?

Just hold on tight, even if your heart is breaking.
Reach into your soul, even if you can't see tomorrow.
Yes, if you have the strength to live,
You can take another look from the other side,
until you find all that is love...

However, the journey was long. It might take a long time before she found that light. It might be a long time before she realized her worth. Till then, could she hold on? What if tomorrow never comes? What if tomorrow is a nightmare? Would she be able to take it? did she have the strength?

It was a long journey with no destination in sight… but if she could just hold on till the destination?

I wish for you to have the strength
to make it through this world,
so open up your mind,
and you'll be able to see...

Her destination. A place where her dreams come true. A world freed from worries. A castle she built dozens of times in the air. Things that only happened in sweet dreams and daydreams.

However, she had to have strength to carry on…

Just remember you are not alone
So don't you fear
Even though you're miles away
I'm by your side
So open up your mind and close your eyes
I'll be there for you no matter where you are

Noticing her handphone had been vibrating, she decided to read the messages. After all, she had been avoiding everybody today. She was so tired and upset that she decided to lock herself in the room, thinking that she would be better off in there. Alone and wallowing in her sorrows. She knew it was not healthy to do that. But she had no choice.

To her surprise, she found quite a number of messages and missed calls. From her friends and family. Messages and missed calls to make sure she was okay, to cheer her up. Maybe she was not really alone. Maybe she just needed to open up her mind and looked around her…

The stars may live for a long time, but that doesn't mean
that the same days will repeat over and over forever.
Noone can see into tomorrow.

“Hey, you okay? Just smile and things will get better.”

“Hey you feeling better? If needed, I am just a call or a sms away.”

“You take care. It might be bad but tomorrow’s a whole new day.”

“I know you are just saying spiteful words and that’s all I hope they would be. You take care okay?”

Messages of concern brought tears to her eyes. Was she too happy? Too relieved? Or too shocked of the realization that she did have people who care?

Just hold on tight, because if you close your eyes,
Look inside yourself, you'll feel a heartbeat.
Yes, I want you to believe in the future.
You can take another look from the other side.

Just hold on tight, even if your heart is breaking.
Reach into your soul, even if you can't see tomorrow.
Yes, there's another world out there.
You can take another look from the other side,
and you'll be able to find all that is love...

Just hold on tight, because if you close your eyes,
look inside yourself, you'll feel a heartbeat.
Yes, I want you to believe in the "future."
You can take another look from the other side

Just hold on tight, even if your heart is breaking.
Reach into your soul, even if you can't see tomorrow.
Yes, there's another world out there.
You can take another look from the other side,
until you find all that is love...

She was not as alone as she thought. She had friends and family who cared. She might not look forward to a future but she knew she could believe in herself and hold on. Her future would not be so bad.

Open up her mind and take a look from the other side. She found things she had to hold on. She saw a light within herself. Soon, she knew she would found what she was looking for…

And in the meantime, she had people supporting her…



And here’s I would like to thank everyone who had given me encouragements during my troubled times… all the best to everyone… well... exams’ over… so time to relax… mina-san take care!!!

And here’s the jap version of the song...I really love this song…

moshimo ima subete ga umaku nante ikanai
makesou ni naru toki datte
hitomi wo tojireba kokoro kara
sekai ga miete kuru

In this world when life can be so tough
You must be strong
Just believe in yourself and don't you fear
So open up your mind and close your eyes
Take another look from the other side

kodoku na yoru demo mayoi osoreru toki mo
ima wa hitori demo kono ashi de doko made mo
aruite ikeru hazu dakara

Just hold on tight hitomi tojita nara
Look inside yourself kagayaki ga aru kara
Yes, subete shinjite hoshii
You can take another look from the other side

Just hold on tight kokoro kujikete mo
Reach into your soul ashita ga mienakute mo
Yes, ikiru tsuyosa ga areba
You can take another look from the other side
ai no subete ni deau made...

kono sekai de ikinuite-iku tame no tsuyosa wo
anata ni negatte-iru kara
kokoro no tobira wo hiraitara
nanika ga miete kuru

Just remember you are not alone
So don't you fear
Even though you're miles away
I'm by your side
So open up your mind and close your eyes
I'll be there for you no matter where you are

hoshi no inochi nara nagai kedo itsu made mo
onaji kono hibi ga kurikaesu wake ja nai
ashita wa dare ni mo mienai

Just hold on tight hitomi tojita nara
Look inside yourself kodou kanjiru kara
Yes, "MIRAI" shinjite hoshii
You can take another look from the other side

Just hold on tight kokoro kujikete mo
Reach into your soul ashita ga mienakute mo
Yes, chigau sekai ga atte
You can take another look from the other side
ai no subete ni deaeru yo...

Just hold on tight hitomi tojita nara
Look inside yourself kodou kanjiru kara
Yes, "MIRAI" shinjite hoshii
You can take another look from the other side

Just hold on tight kokoro kujikete mo
Reach into your soul ashita ga mienakute mo
Yes, chigau sekai ga atte
You can take another look from the other side
ai no subete ni deau made...
ok... i m trying to type up swift killer again... starting frm the first one...
i noe that's realli realli old... but i lost everything when my com spoiled... was it 2 yrs ago... haha...
or mayb i shd do my other stories first?
aniway... hope to see everione soon... no... not for sch...

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