living...

i dunno why but it seemed so tough to continue living...

aniway... i juz want to say... i m having realli dark thoughts so not posting them here but at livejournal... mayb a mild one here...

i dunno why but it's tough...
sometimes it's so hard that i feel like using physical pain to hide my tears...
y do u tink u noe everithg?
wad u noe it's juz a mask i had...
y did u keep changing ur wrds then claim it's my fault...
y is it that u tink u re always rite?
y is everithg i do wrong n everithg u do is rite?
y is it that i m aways so useless?
y is my tears flowing when u said those words?
y is the pain so hurtful that i have to escape?
y m i such a coward?

it's been a long time since i had such depressing toks...
it's been a long time since i tok abt jumping...
it's been a long time since i tok abt moving out...
it's been a long time since i hide n cry...
it's a long time since i felt this pain......
but it still hurts...

ppl lie... time nvr heals all wounds... in fact time made it worse.......

i will nvr be appreciated

i will nvr be impt...

i will always be invisble...

wearing a mask... taken for granted..........