i have an argument w wenya tis morning...
first is the umbrella then the test then the toilet...
umm... i tink everi1 is lost... ?_?
ok... juz that wenya forgot abt the test n somehow conveyed the msg that i did not tell her n it's my fault to mi.... then we were rushing for lect n she sort of got angry w mi cause i kept hurrying her... well wadever... the thg is we decided to forget the whole thg....
i went to the lib juz now n sat therte reading b4 gg to the first floor n read while listening to music... guess i did that every time i m upset...
i tok abt a lot of things on my way home...
juz put a few thoughts here...
cry...
when do one cry?
i rmb when i m in pri sch i cried in sch and have a major breakdown when i was p4? i cant realli rmb... juz that some ppl were always saying veri hurting thgs n i broke down in the middle of a lesson... unable to take it animore...
it was then i promised myself... no more crying in class...
i will be strong and juz take everithg behind a mask... i refuse to let them see the tears...
it's funny in a sort of way now that i tink abt it... it even seem childish now.. but that was wad i realli tok at that time...
then i cried a few times in sec sch... but no one saw them...
actually i cried a lot secretly... juz that i cant realli take wad the rest of my "friends" were doing...
mayb that's why i lost contact w most of them... some even ignored mi...
and the most major time i rmb is when a teacher insulted and yelled at mi in front of everi1... though i tink most of the ppl dun like the teacher n comforted mi... other times i juz smiled and refused to let others see the tears...
maybe it's my personality or sth... i have veri few true friends....
then in jc... i also cried... n the most times i hid is the lib or the toilet besides the study area...
maybe it's my personality or sth... i cried mostly when i was angry...
it's juz that tears juz flowed... n the funniest thg is that i tried to hide tears a lot esp if i m crying due to saddness...
i rmb a big fight when i juz hid in the lib crying for an hr... also a time when i got really angry and frustrated over sth that tears juz flowed down in front of everione...
n mayb another time when i got realli upset n cried in the toilet...
no one actually realized i was crying...
mayb i m a crying person... i m also some1 who likes to bottle up thgs?
i dunno... juz that i was actually close to crying today on the bus but i tink that it is also mostly due to the fact that i felt like i m sick n my temp is rising...
i dunno why... i tink i nid to catch up on my sleep n...
is someone cursing mi? i m sneezing....
first is the umbrella then the test then the toilet...
umm... i tink everi1 is lost... ?_?
ok... juz that wenya forgot abt the test n somehow conveyed the msg that i did not tell her n it's my fault to mi.... then we were rushing for lect n she sort of got angry w mi cause i kept hurrying her... well wadever... the thg is we decided to forget the whole thg....
i went to the lib juz now n sat therte reading b4 gg to the first floor n read while listening to music... guess i did that every time i m upset...
i tok abt a lot of things on my way home...
juz put a few thoughts here...
cry...
when do one cry?
i rmb when i m in pri sch i cried in sch and have a major breakdown when i was p4? i cant realli rmb... juz that some ppl were always saying veri hurting thgs n i broke down in the middle of a lesson... unable to take it animore...
it was then i promised myself... no more crying in class...
i will be strong and juz take everithg behind a mask... i refuse to let them see the tears...
it's funny in a sort of way now that i tink abt it... it even seem childish now.. but that was wad i realli tok at that time...
then i cried a few times in sec sch... but no one saw them...
actually i cried a lot secretly... juz that i cant realli take wad the rest of my "friends" were doing...
mayb that's why i lost contact w most of them... some even ignored mi...
and the most major time i rmb is when a teacher insulted and yelled at mi in front of everi1... though i tink most of the ppl dun like the teacher n comforted mi... other times i juz smiled and refused to let others see the tears...
maybe it's my personality or sth... i have veri few true friends....
then in jc... i also cried... n the most times i hid is the lib or the toilet besides the study area...
maybe it's my personality or sth... i cried mostly when i was angry...
it's juz that tears juz flowed... n the funniest thg is that i tried to hide tears a lot esp if i m crying due to saddness...
i rmb a big fight when i juz hid in the lib crying for an hr... also a time when i got really angry and frustrated over sth that tears juz flowed down in front of everione...
n mayb another time when i got realli upset n cried in the toilet...
no one actually realized i was crying...
mayb i m a crying person... i m also some1 who likes to bottle up thgs?
i dunno... juz that i was actually close to crying today on the bus but i tink that it is also mostly due to the fact that i felt like i m sick n my temp is rising...
i dunno why... i tink i nid to catch up on my sleep n...
is someone cursing mi? i m sneezing....
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