2017年 新的挑战

这一年，2017年， 非常值得纪念的一年。

在事业上：

1.第一次教小六毕业班，雄心号，从小二就跟着的班级
 （2CL2 (30), 3CL2(36),4CL4 (only yr I din follow them), 5CL3 (下半年（5CL2(33)）), 6CL2 (31)）
2. 第一次负责新年
3. 第一次带学生去马六甲

在家爱情： （2018年）

1. 房子

2. 婚纱

3. 酒席

4. 第一次一起旅行

5. 妹妹结婚

等

等...
Waiting...

Someone just say life is a waiting game...

Is it?

As a child
Waiting for food... waiting to go out... waiting to go to school

As a student
Waiting for recess... waiting for lesson to end... waiting to go home...

As an adult
Waiting for bus... waiting for laptop to load... waiting...

Waiting for that special one

And lastly as we grow old... we are

Waiting to die.....

But that's not all life is...

Life is full of speial moments...
Creating memories... sharing the joy and tears...

And with all the special ones in ur life
There will be no loneliness because
You know there is always someone with you

And thank you for being that one...

也许...

也许最近好累

也许是时候换新的环境、换新的工作。

不知怎么的，最近总觉得忧郁症又回来了。

好多好多的事情做不完。最近常有想哭的感觉。半夜起来，那种心没理由的快跳。

我以为那已经是过了很久的事情了。

也许因为有了新的依靠，自己变得软弱了。也许因为自己并不是像以前一样坚强了。

我忽然好害怕，好怕，好怕。 好想见他，告诉他，但是又不想让他看到自己那样的表情。

我只好选择逃避。新年没给他家的人拜年。不知那是不是很不好。但是他没开口，我也不知要怎样说。

总觉得好着急 好害怕。不知跟谁说。

最近工作也很多。虽然也告了一个段落了，但是还是很怕，很着急。但是我什么也做不下去。满脑子的问题。满脑子的烦恼。我不知道该怎么做。不知道要跟谁说。不知道要做什么。

也许最近他们想栽培我，给很多东西做。但是我想离开。

我想消失，想离开指责格地方。离开这个家，离开这个工作。离开这个世界。但我舍不得。

我离不开他。也许这就是爱。难过时，我想着他。开心时，我好想他。但是我没回他的简讯。我不知道为什么，就不想回他的简讯。

也许我是个矛盾的人吧。。。

好久不见

不知怎么的在隔了这么多年后，我决定再次回到这里。

有人告诉我，我把感情都藏在心里。那么就写在这里吧。

有人看也罢，不想看的人请自动离开吧。谢谢，不送了。 do not pass go, do not collect $200 ;p

colour quiz

Your Existing Situation

"Needs extra attention and must feel she is very important to those around her. If she doesn't think she is being spoiled enough, she may shut herself off from others."

Your Stress Sources

"Always trying to make a good impression on others, but doubtful she is succeeding. Feels she has the right to everything she hopes and dreams of and becomes annoyed and helpless when things don't go her way. Is troubled by the very thought of failure which leaves her feeling miserable. Always sees herself as the victim as if everyone treats her poorly and she never is given her fair share. Feels her failures are no fault of her own, but due to the shortcomings of others."

Your Restrained Characteristics

"Current situation makes her feel unable to prove himself, but tries to make the best of things."

"Seeking to broaden her horizons and believes her hopes and dreams are realistic. Worries she may not be able to do the things she wants and needs to escape to a peaceful, quiet environment in order to restore her confidence."

Your Desired Objective

Is easily exhausted from too much argument and harsh circumstances. Sensitive and looks for sympathy and understanding from others.

Your Actual Problem

"Feeling a lack of energy, she does not wish to be involved in further activity or give in to demands. she is feeling powerless causing her stress, agitation, and irritation, all which she tries to escape by refusing to participate altogether. she tries to escape into a fantasy world where things go her way and her desires are easier to reach."

Your Actual Problem #2

"Is disappointed and let down, feels there is no point in making new goals as they will leave her feeling the same way. Looking for friendly, pleasant relationships with others, who will further develop her intellect. she tries to escape into a fantasy world where things go her way and her desires are easier to reach."

41 Personality Test

Your personality type: "Good-natured Realist"

Quiet, kind and conscientious. Can be depended on to follow through. Usually puts the needs of others above their own needs. Stable and practical, they value security and traditions. Well-developed sense of space and function. Rich inner world of observations about people. Extremely perceptive of other’s feelings. Interested in serving others.

Careers that could fit you include:

Interior decorators, designers, nurses, administrators, managers, secretaries, child care/early childhood development, social work, counselors, paralegals, clergy, office managers, shopkeepers, bookkeepers, homemakers, gardeners, clerical supervisors, curators, family practice physicians, health service workers, librarians, medical technologists, typists.

I'm a O10-C25-E31-A50-N60 Big Five!!

personality test

I'm a O16-C21-E37-A38-N90 Big Five!!

runing away

2013...

i think i should start saving...

for a place of my own...
or it will be better if i try to take a course overseas?
or find the other half n move away?

it's quite hard so i can only start saving...
no more spending unneccessary
no more buying mac breakfast
no more nice jap food...

i had enoough of trying to keep quiet over incorrect thgs...

why do u need to be so stubborn?
everything it's money to you?
everythg is right to u?
then dun ask for my opinion!!!!
no need to ask me for anithg!

if i move away... mayb i can finally be free
free of everythg....
mayb it's time for me to find a place to move away?
maybe it's time for me to go somewhere where no one can see or find me...

it's time....
but first it's money...
i will need to save enough...
n hopefully it will be enough...

i shd have learnt to go out at dawn n return at night...
then hopefully conflicts will be less...
interactn will be less...

maybe it's time to run away...
to hide... to lose my memories...
to spint away... to sleep forever???

letter to you(m) if i die i actually think you will be happy

I decided to make this a ranting blog le....

Instead of writing and updating my life, I think I needed more of a place to rant all my problems... to shed my tears... to say things that I cant say so in real life...

Because this is life. Life is never always joys and laughter... Life is constantly filled with tears and sadness. Beacause without them, life is not complete.

Just a letter for you... someone I can't say face to face...

When I was trying my best, are you by my side?
When I was feeling low and down, do you know?
When I was struggling with life, do you feel it?
When I was sick, do you even care?

You ranted, you nagged, you scolded, you threw things...

But when is the last time you show your concern?
when is the last time you say nice things?

when is the last time you let me do things without nagging?
when is the last time you let me do what i really like?

do you even know what is it that i like?
do you know that i m sad?
do you know that i need your care?
do you know.......?
do you know...?
do you know?

Guess that is just for me to know and for me to hide...maybe it's time for me to disappear?

if not i will never be the person sitting down here, typing with tears and listening to your scolding...
but then this is why blood is thicker than water....

thinking

sometimes thinking too much is nt gd but one can't helps thinking too much....

the journey is long yet one day we might still reach the end as long as you continue...

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Cutest little Chinese girl - on China's Got Talent

China's Got Talent show 2011 12-year-old Mongolian boy singing "Mother i...

Choi Sung Bong

I saw this on facebook...

the vid really touched my heart...

life might be hard for him but he perserved and he strived to improve himself...

to me, he have an instrument in him not only to create wonderful music, but also to bring hope to people.
he taught everyone that however hard it maybe, there is always hope.

to me, everyone has a talent. everyone has a strength. it might not be tangible. one might not know what's his or her own talents.

for me, i feel that that is part of a teacher's job. to nurture and discover the talents of our children. everyone can do something special.

life is hard. some had said it's not like there's war or incurable disease... however, it might be as hard but nevertheless it is still hard. in my opinion, the most important thing about him is that we can learn from him. his perserverance.

to everyone, what is difficult is different. it might be stress. it might be exams. it might be money issues. it might be family problems. it can even be relationships.

but what is important is that we learn. through whatever hardships we have been through, we should learn from mistakes made. and we MUST climb back up and stand on our own two feet. there are always people who might try to trip you. not that it is always intentionally. some might have done something to hurt you out of ignorance. but then be strong...

be strong. be kind. be supportive. you are never the only one suffering but you can never find someone who can really know what you are feeling and going through. at least empathise with others and be interdependant. let your friend depend on you n depend on them. smile and be strong.

some had said that choi sung bong is using his hard life story as a way to gain people's support. but to me, no matter what it is, we can still learn from him. 

zamri smile

smile! >_<

depression

ok a update per week... i heard ppl talking abt pract 2day... someone frm here went to my first pract place... it brought "nightmares" back 4 mi... but it was then i realized tat everithg had passed.... but one thg remained...depression... it was further brought on when we had a talk on wed... about depression... it was then i realized tat during my first pract i might really b gg thru depression... here are the symptoms... this is the website i found about it as well... http://www.helpguide.org/mental/depression_signs_types_diagnosis_treatment.htm
Feelings of helplessness and hopelessness.
~i rmb crying everiday n there is juz plain feelings of suffocation at times... like i cant breathe properly but properly because i was crying?
Loss of interest in daily activities.
~i totally lost interest in all my fan fics n stories... T_T
Appetite or weight changes.
~i tink i lose 2 or 3 kg within 2 weeks... cant eat anithg... used to go for hours wout food if not for xm...
Sleep changes. ~
i tink i was gg on wout sleep for days... sleep comes in sitting b4 my com if not at all...
Irritability or restlessness.
~i m used to crying n easily irriated or agaited...
Loss of energy.
~how to have energy wout fod or sleep but i cant seem to force myself to hav both...
Self-loathing.
~of course w someone saying all those thgs to u all the time... haiz...
Concentration problems.
~cant concentrate at all...
Unexplained aches and pains.
~all kinds of pain... y dun ask mi... from head to stomach to toes... it hurt...

wow n i lasted for more than a month???

guess that's y everyone was so scared i might do sth drastic...
nt to mention the daze n dark thoughts i was having...

then again i m over it... even my cousellor said so...

now though tired but i m happy :)

i will try my best though it means no more procrastinating... haiz...

space battleship yamato

It might be just a faint ray of hope... a small dubious hope... but with our strength...

let's make it into real hope...
it's a really nice show... for a long time, it's the first movie i really wanted to watch. First seen it on tv... regarding the movie production... i had fallen for the cg n the theme... galaxy...
it's a great movie... i loved the way the battles are being portrayed n the characterisation is great...
i think with the situation in Japan now... this is sth really touching...
the heroism, the selflessness as well as the helplessness...
yes the hope is very small... but with that hope they travelled over thousands hundreds of light years... the number of lives lost... the determination...

where is this hope in our lives today? everyday, it seems like i have given up easily... i wished that life is easy... maybe i shd stay stronger be braver n ventured more... do more n gain more... smile through the sweat n tell myself i have given my best... then i will be better :)

this is a show worth watching...

however, i was a bit unlucky in the sense tat the little boy next to mi kept kicking mi n a bit distracting... i tink he's too young to be in the cinema esp watching such shows tat he had no interest in. n it also distract the parents n oher viewers w the way he behaved n like when he wants 2 go to toilet n stuff.. then werid thg is tat he is not seated in between his parents to minimise his "effects" until the later part of the show... haiz...

aniway it is definitely a show worth watching...

it might not have driven mi to tears like the hawthorn tree but it give me a different kind of touch n the hope it inspires...

With hope we embarked on this mission, n real hope is what we hoped to find to bring back a better future for all those we left behind...

voiceless...

haiz realized i fall sick too easily... after the almost "a&e" incident, i lost my voice... my throat n m head hurt... went to see the doc last wed... actually i shd hav gone on tue since mon afternoon i m alr feeling really bad... but aniway... the doc says it's juz a normal cold... n i will recover soon.. so i decided not 2 take mc... until now... i m still coughing n my voice hurts... dun tink the medicine is working but hopefully i can get my voice back soon... cant even sing ani song... :( haiz... pls let mi get my voice back.... if nt i hav to see the doc again... n dun tink i will go back to the same one...

test

decided to take this again...

Yi took the free ColorQuiz.com personality test! "Believes that ideas and emotions should come toget..." Click here to read the rest of the results.