friends 2...

well... back frm the toilet...

ok... juz received news that everithg is fine now!

so feeling happy now...

a bit afraid that i made thgs worse for them...

guess that was wad i got 4 trying to meddle into other ppl's affairs... :p

but ... i like to noe all my friends are happy...

aniway... i tink i m lucky that i did not choose to b a social worker...

i tink i m bad at resloving conflict n too emotionial for wad's is needed...

well... finished reading a few stories...

wad realli touched my heart abt the 48 chap long story is that a sense of belonging is impt.

it does not matter if u are binded by blood or not...

though family ties are impt as well...

the feelings, the care n the thgs u do for each other are wad matters most...

i juz argued w my mum in the morning...

i felt so upset... mayb it's my fault mayb it's not...

wad's upset mi is that i cant do wad other ppl could...

i wanted to go out n my mum will say it's a waste of my money...

i buy comics it's also a waste of my money...

all tis money shd be saved to pay for my sch fees...

but i realli hope to have some luxury in buying thgs i realli like...

these few days... she caught mi n my sis watching anime on the laptop n she's upset that we might spoiled the com... n she felt that it was a waste of time n money...

well... i argued of course... mayb i shdn't... it's juz that i wanted the freedom to relax?

i wanted to do thgs that other ppl could do...

but mayb because of our finicial status or sth...

i could not realli do wad others could...

ppl could go watch movies, go out shopping buy clothes, cds n all the thgs...

but i dun get to... now it's so much better w mi using my tuition pay...

i try to save as much as i could but sometimes it's so difficult to resist all those temptations...

most imptly... i noe the reason for mi feeling upset is that...

i wanted their approval of wadever i do...

i guess nothing is better than having ur family n friends' support in doing sth...

i tink it is the feeling that counts not the blood or sth...

but i m really glad to be in tis family... nbo matter how much i ranted...

aniway... feelings are wad most impt to mi...

n if everi1's happy...

it's even better... ^_^

now that everithg is fine i guess... i could only hope that i will not be stuck in the toilet again...

haiz mayb i shd take my mum's advice n see a doc... but then again... i lazy... :p

n outside they are painting the flats n the smell is realli making mi nausous...