hurt...

ever wondered why ppl intentionally say thgs that they knew will hurt the other party?

when u argue w another person whether friend or foe...

as long as you feel hurt...

u shoot back?

u say thgs u noe will hurt them...

sometimes words hurt more than actions...

verbal attacks can be more lethal...

simple words...

"hate" "die" n other words could cause great pain to the other party esp if u are close...

a phrase like "i hate u"

frm ur enemy

might make u smirk...

or have u return a casual... "glad that u share the same opinion as me"...

frm a stranger

might make you uncomfortable...

or have u ask "what makes u think that?" or simply juz walk away... like u care for an unknown person's feelings...

but frm a friend or family...

such a sentence could torn ur heart to pieces...

destroy ur relationship?

the closer u re to someone... the easier to be hurt...

but everyone need to be close to someone...

to be able to trust someone...

no one could live in loneliness...

it would be too sad...

yet... the closer u are...

the easier these words might come out in the heat of anger...

n that's why ppl nid to think b4 they speak...

when u are hurt...

most ppl wanted the other to feel that hurt n in order to do so...

they use the most hurtful words...

but then in true friendship or kinship...

the other party ought to be able to understand... n forgive...

n the party who said those words might want to apologise...

words can be more lethal than actions...

actions might speak faster than words but...

undeniably... words hold power as well...

well... isn't being a person difficult?

flashing...

a pen i bought at daiso for my sis...
have i tink 7 colours and one is kept changing colour...

i oni managed to capture tis colours...


with a click and a flash, a color is changed...
with a tick and a chime, a day was gone...
life goes on......

lagging again...

ok... so long din post le!!!

aniway...

well...

1st of all...

results are out...

haiz din do well... but better than last sem a bit...

weird though...

but i tink tat little improvements were due to the few study session w mango...

but we skipped a lot of times... so nxt sem muz be consistent...

aniway... i tink the 2 wk mc plus the rush for the term paper...

realli affect my results...

but cant be helped...

haiz why cant my chicken pox be like now? hols?

haiz...

aniway... the pull on daily work realli affect my results i tink...

i got b- 4 all my ch modules!

cant believe it! but most of the ch modules i have tis sem needs a lot of daily work n term paper mark...

final exam oni 30% or 60%...

then for 2 of the term papers... i did badly cause one is during chicken pox first week...

i rmb one of teh comment is not enouf logic... which is funny cause i was having fever n feeling uncomfortable when i was doing it... so how much logic can i have? haha :p

then another one i was rushing it with einstein's term paper... at my grandma's hse...

so did badly... luckily i din fail or get a c...

but shd be better... that's my major!!!

translation again i got an ugly c+ again!!!!!!

but cant be helped cause it is all daily work... 50% daily work...

n the qns are like practical qns... i miz too many lessons due to mc n cant get the hang of it...

plus i still dun understand how testing us on which are verbs or sentence struture of english sentences relevant to translation... haiz...

a bit funny was that... the oni module that i did better ... ok i oni got a b...

was the most difficult module einstein's universe... haha...

i realli enjoy this module...

kinda regret that i missed quite a number of the module's lect due to mc...

n also dun understand y i din enjoy it as much for understanding the universe...

same lecturer n tutor...

but it was fun... realli like it...

aniway... on sat after tuition...

came home...

n we decied to go out to eat at 500+ to celebrate my dad's bday on wed...

haiz.. cant eat seafood... so limited choice but still ate a lot...

but we went home after that cause my 2nd sis got exams...

on sun after tuition went to causeway pt to buy antivirus software...

$59!!! decided to buy trend micro...

my old one expired le n i din realized till sat...

then on wed.. my dad's bday!!!

i decided to bring my little sis to amk to buy durian puff, durian fudge, durian pancake for my dad...he likes to eat durian...

we had fun...

she bought a watch n a pair of shoes...

then i got addicted to playing puzzlequest,

watching xiaofuren dvd (i am realli finishing!),

watching tantei gakuen Q (realli exciting drama!!! ryuu is so cool! realli love it!)

n also watch a few episodes of prince of tennis realli funny...

rereading hikura no go...) i got some of the comics at home... bought it when i was in sec sch... )

haha i realli hol mood...

tut got cancelled on thur nite... spent the nite chatting w yiwen...

haha i so long din mit ani of my friends le...

tink i becoming a "zai nv"? haha...

wonder how the others are doing? ^_^

hey minna-san hope to see u all soon!!!

juz watch the news...

my hse kept having tis werid smell tis morning...

my mum said last nite alr did have tis smell...

n juz realized that there's a fire at dunno where... on the news...

that's where the smell comes frm...

time...

well... mango is gg thru a sad time...

dunno if she will see tis post...

but i juz want to ask her to take care...

jia you, girl!

dun forget u have our support!

n that's wad i tink she wanted u to be...

jia you...

rest well...

dun tink too much...

be strong for urself n ur family...

believe in urself...

jia you...

The Mythical Detective Loki Ragnarok 25

i cant rmb how this series ends...

i oni got 1st 2 manga...
n decided to watch...

n it's so touching...

the 2nd last episode...

i tink i miss it when it's showing on tv last time...

cause i dun tink i will forget such a touching episode!!!

it's veri sad!!!

the girl assassin who had been trying to kill loki was... Hel... loki's daughter...

n she tok her father dun love her so she wanted her father to feel the same pain...

she was alone n lonely...

odin told her her father hate her...

so sad!!!

she realli tok her father din care abt her...

so she tried to kill her father following odin's order!!!

n loki had no idea she realli felt that way...

he din noe his daughter was sad n lonely... after he had been brandished frm the world of gods to the human world..

it was so sad...

in the end... Hel juz died in loki's arms... w a smile...

knowing that her father did love her...

it was realli sad... but at least juz b4 she died she realized that she was loved...

b4 that, she could not even understand why Mayura's father tried to save Mayura...

even when mayura told her

no parents would hate their child...

she could not believe that...

she died happily... content... in her fav dream...

she told loki that she loved reading

because by reading she could escape to another world...

her world is cold... her heart is frozen...

she hate flowers...

the flowers are beautiful...

but no matter how pretty they are... they dun talk to her...

she hate them...

by reading mayb she could fool herself...

it was realli sad...

how could a daughter live, believing that her own father hate her?

she was so sad...

n i hate the end... she died juz when she realize her father love her... not hate her...

her father juz dun understand her...

n loki was realli angry at odin 4 playing w Hel's feelings...

but in the end... he did not go back to the world of gods...

neither did ani of the others...

n i tink there's a sequel...?

realli want to buy the manga...
loki's realli kawaii!

search the net 4 some pics....
all the pics are taken frm
http://www.animepaper.net/gallery/scans/Matantei-Loki-Ragnarok/

n they are not MINE... so dun sue mi!

wad would u do?

i was reading a fan fic last nite...

n the character was told he would be blind in 2 days...

it was highly possible that it would be a permanent damage...

it was scary... that ur world was gg into darkness forever veri soon...

the fear, desperation.. n tredipation...

wad would u do then?

start preparations?

he went to see all the ppl he wanted to rmb...

he went to see all the sights he wanted to rmb...

he saw all the things he like and rmb them...

when he finally woke up in darkness...

there's nothing he could do...

nothing he had left...

he was a pilot...

now his sight gone...

all his dreams shattered...

all his smiles disappeared...

n his life changed...

wad would u do?

if u are gg blind in 2 days?

i was reading "master san's sword"... san shao ye de jian in chinese

and he had three days left to live...

wad would u do?

he asked the same qns to everi1...

and ppl gave ans of doing thgs that no one expect them to do...

gamble... marry... n kill...

when u had nothing to lose...

that's when ppl become scary...

for his three days he fulfil their wishes...

though he did not die in the end...

wad would u do?

if u would die in 3 days?

i did read an fic abt a char dying in a wk? or less cant rmb...

i forgot the tittle...

but it was a realli touching fic...

cause the char decided not to tell ani1...

n continued his life for the nxt few days as per normal...

hiding his pain and regrets...

n smiling while crying...

n when ppl realized...

it was juz so sad...

n i tink it was a happy ending...

he did not die...

wad would u do?

if u are dying in a week?

jurong lib n imm... n some reflectns

yes!

finally went out today w sijia 2day...

really had fun...

talked abt thgs...

n borrowed lots of bks!!!

haha lib double the quota le...

i found an eng runourni kenshin novel!!!

realli cant believe it at 1st...

i had seen lots of chinese manga novel but not eng ones!!!

wow! 1st time i saw one!

all thxs to si jia cause i usually dun realli look at eng bks haha...

i actually 4got to take pics...

bad memory....

we walked ard imm...

heehee i buy 2 interesting pens at daiso...

upload the pics tmr...

we talked abt some thgs as we ate our ramen...

oishii desu ne...

though i dun realli like the meat...

aniway... juz sth we talked abt that juz happened to be on my mind these few days...

how sheltered am i?

i tink i was quite sheltered frm bad thgs ...

i had my share of doubts, hurt and sadness in my life...

but i m lucky...

i always had friends and family to support mi...

i was tinking abt this when i was watching saiyuki reload n xiao fu ren the other day

n today we talked abt some little thgs in our lives...

i could not helped tinking that i had some friends in my life that really impacted mi a lot... whether in a positive or negative way...

politics is always ard mi...

since even in pri sch...

but mayb not now... cause uni more free?

i tink it's the lack of a standard class...

ppl ard u changed almost everyday...

in pri n sec sch... it's more abt friends in the clique...

in jc it is ur class...

n i had to say the way thgs are changed as ppl get older...

they get more manipulative...

i was reading a gw fan fic...

n one of e character tried to use feelings to manipulate his best friend to telling him thgs he wanted to noe...

he tried to use gulit saying that he was not a gd friend by not telling him...

then that failed...

he used insults...

trying to make his best friend feel feel upset cause he wont tell him...

then he used anger... n thgs...

is that wad best friend shd b?

as tools to information? as punchbag?

i dunno...

everi1 has a diff interpretion of friendship...

n sometimes they conflict...

it's so hard to maintain a friendship sometimes...

but if no effort put in... no benefits will be gained...

that's life i guess...

it's juz the way...

dun expect gd thgs to happen wout effort put in...

n well...

i guess i m not one who likes to give b4 gaining?

i dunno...

but sometime... it's veri tiring 4 mi to maintain sth i guess...

like now...

it's the hols...

n supposed to be able to mit up easily...

but i cant seem to be able ot find a time to mit up w my friends...

mayb it's that i cant commit some time?

but i tink it's mostly a clash of our free time...

juz that... most of them likes to mit at nite n FAR AWAY frm my hse...

it's so late by the time i reach home...

n i dun like it one bit...

n for mi most of the time are spent on travelling...

n i dun like coming home late...

n 4 some evenings i got tuition...

hence i cant go out in the afternoons...

n the other days not free for the others...

then 4 wkends...

i got tuition in the mornings or afternoons...

so cant go out...

but i had to say i did enjoy teaching...

juz tink i need to learn to have more patience sometime or be more firm...

i learn that letting children esp younger ones choose is not very gd...

cause they will juz start negotiating instead of listening...

actually i do go out but juz alone on my own...

wandering ard doing some of my own shopping...

actually i din do much shopping more on buying food to eat haha...

juz go to lib find some bks n read b4 gg home...

haiz... i m getting antisocial?

i dunno? haha...

hmm... is blogging consider social?

nya... dun tink so... haha...

aniway

impt days coming presents to buy...

realli need to do some real shopping then...

haha...

hope to mit up soon, ok?

sorie my entry seemed so randomn...

haha typing wadever comes to mind...

n ps...

is anione else experiencing prob when gg to zhui xing's blog?

cause i cant see the posts...

actually for some time le... since last wk? or the wk b4...

or is it my com?