is that a right answer....

i was watching 小鱼儿与花无缺 last episode yesterday....
here's sth.... it is abt the death of 苏樱... right after 小鱼儿 finally tell her he loved her n asked her to marry him...

"I love you."
She was stunned. Could what she had just heard be true? "Will you marry me after all this is over?"
Why? Why? Why? She screamed in her mind.
Tears fell from her eyes. She was poisoned. A poison that even she, the daughter of the world's greatest doctor, could not save herself. She knew that the poison of the plant was very vile. There was no cure in the entire world especially now that her parents were dead. Her parents were the best and no one else could help her. In less than an hour she would melt into a puddle of blood.
“Hey, are you alright in there?” he asked from outside the door.
She had refused to let him inside the room as she mixed up the poison. She did not want him to know that she was poisoned. No. He must not know that. She quickly put the potion she was to make together quickly as she tried to calm herself.
“Yeah,” she answered, trying to control her trembling voice as he continued to talk about the future they will be having in the future.
But there was no future for her. She could feel her hands shaking and her legs weakening. The poison had taken effect.
“Then we will be at the island and have kids. If the first born is a girl, we can let…” she tuned him out. There was a buzzing in her ears and her vision was blurred.
Finally she managed to pour the potion into the small bottle. There, at least she could help to save the world with this potion.
Shakingly she reached the door and opened. He smiled at her as she passed the bottle to him. It was then her legs gave out. She fell.
“What?” he dashed and just caught her before she hit the floor. He placed the precious bottle on the table as he carried her.
“Hey? What happened? Don’t scare me like that! What’s wrong?” he asked desperately as he tried to stop her shaking.
She merely smiled and said simply, “I’m sorry but I’m dying.”
“But how?” he shook his head at the abrupt news as he asked hopefully, “hey, it’s a joke, right?”
“No,” she shook her head, “I was poisoned. Just please promise me that you will forget me and move on, okay?”
“What do you mean by that? You can’t die! You can’t just leave me alone like that! When were you poisoned? You’re kidding, right? Please! Please just say you are!” he pleaded as tears started to flow. No! Too many people had left him! She must not leave him as well!
She shook her head as she showed him her left hand, “see, it is melting now.”
“No! You will be okay! I promised you will be okay! Please!” he pleaded desperately.
But she smiled, “the poison had already spread and my organs had started to melt.”
“This can’t be true! You can’t leave me!” he muttered as he tightened his arms around her body.
It was then she started to scream in pain.
“It hurts! It hurts so much!” she screamed and struggled in his grip.
“Hush! Hush! You will be okay! Come o, you can do it!” he whispered as he tightened his grip.
But it was useless. She continued to struggle and then she did something that froze his heart.
She pulled her dagger from her pouch. “Please! Please kill me! I can’t take the pain anymore!”
“No!” he yelled as he pulled her dagger away but she fought with him, pleading with him to kill her, to end her pain.
“I can’t take it! I can feel them melting! It hurts! It hurts! Kill me, please! I beg you!” she screamed and struggled.
“No! Please don’t make me do this! Please don’t make me kill the one I loved most! Everyone had left me! You can’t leave me! You can’t make me kill you! You can make it! You won’t die!” he yelled as he struggled to throw the dagger from her grip.
“Just let me die! Please! Let me die now if you love me!” she screamed in pain.
He froze, “what should I do? What should I do?”
“Kill me! Please! End my pain!” she begged in aguish as she tried to stab the dragger at her heart, “do it if you love me, please!”
“If I love you,” he repeated, “kill you if I love you.”
And then he did it…
The dagger was suddenly in her heart.
She smiled at him and whispered weakly, “forget me…”
Then steam rose up and soon, only a puddle of blood remained.
He cried and cried then he just stared and stared and stared. At the puddle of blood which was once his beloved woman. The one person he was going to spend his future with happily. He killed her with the dagger. He killed her… the one he loved most…
His brother came back an hour later. Yet he only found a puddle of blood on the floor and an incoherent brother hiding in the closet. He was hiding there and mumbling about having no more tears to cry…
“She died…” he said simply…

ok.... here's sth i written after watching that episode.... it's so sad.....

小鱼儿与花无缺

最近在看小鱼儿与花无缺，
有些地方超好笑！
有些却让人泪流满面。。。
为什么有这么坏的恶人呢？
为什么要失去了才懂得应该要珍惜呢？
为什么有些人能为了名誉而不择手段？
却也有人为了孩子师父而死。。。
更有人为了爱情而不惜牺牲性命？
这是人生吗？

所谓仁义无双的江别鹤为了自己连女儿也害
而十大恶人却为了义子而死。。。
自称要做恶人的人却为了一个不称职的师父而死。。。
里面有句话令我印象深刻。。。
世界上最坏的人不是恶人而是伪君子。。。

唉。。。 人从古到今都有很多为了不同的理由杀人。。。
但也有人为了他人而死。。。
人是这样的吗？

ok... my finalised modules to take nxt sem... if can get...
1.CH2141 general history of china
2.CH2228 ci-lyric in tang song period
3.LAJ1201 Japanese 1
4.NM1101e New Media and Society
5.SSA1201 Singapore society
that's all.... n wenya.... pls rmb to declare ur major b4 going into tt website ok?

n another emboss pic....
guess wad it is.... :p

pics i draw...

hey i have been trying to draw... but not veri nice...
dun kill mi!!!!


it is very ugly... u noe who u re frm the pic...
n here is the emboss type....


look like egyptian hier?

stories

hey... it's hols n i m stuck in front of my com at every hour....
tink i m addicted to reading fan fics.... n stories....
well... got to many stories to type up....


short list....
1. peace knights... chap 7
2. zhui xing story.... chap 4... can i give it a name myself?
3. a special story.... cant say anythg.... supposed to be a surprise....
4. i'll kill you... a gw fan fic that i had finished on paper....
actually i finished typing.... millions of wds took mi mths.... but then com's hard disk spoiled... so say bye bye... now... retyping... some frm memories....
5. got a plot for a chinese story not sure to write it out or not....
i named it as 死神的使者 ... sth like my swift killer series....
6. swift killer... mayb shd put everythg online as well.....

haiz so many thg to type....
n i m veri upset w the ending of Shaman King!!!!
story cant end like tt!!!! aniway.... i finally borrowed that comic frm lib....
n still watching the same vcds.... not even finished the first box....
so many thgs......
n i tink my peom another post.... i noe the review of my exams.... also nxt one i tink....

ok here's a thought for the modules i m interested in for nxt sem....
but havent choose which 5 to take...
1. GEK1519 science of music
2.GEK1520 understanding the universe
3.GEK1050 space and health
4.CH2141 general history of china
5.CH2228 ci-lyric in tang song period
6.CH2244 Women in Chinese History, 960-1840
7. LAJ1201 Japanese 1
8.NM1101e New Media and Society
see... i can even separate into 2 semesters....
aniway... 1 n 2 n3 choose one, then 5 n 6 n 7 choose two then 4 n 8 definitely muz take....
haiz... my mind in a maze....

relaxing....

ok.... a lot had happened....
but tink i talk abt yesterday first....

aniway... i veri unlucky yesterday morning!!!
i was late in reaching the mrt due to the incident at yishun mrt....
aniway... the train was so slow!!! i was waiting for so long....
n i was alr late so veri anxious.... n din finish my cl....
then the train kept stopping for so long every stops as people kept trying to get on the train even when there was nbo way more to get in....
so the train cant move... n i was so irritated....
the driver... if that is wad u called the person who drive the train kept announcing n asking ppl on the platform to wait for the nxt train n stand behind the yellow line....
haiz.... i was so late....

then cl exam... to be elaborated later....
n mi n wenya n yundan go jurong pt n boon lay lib...
yundan went there to meet her friend while mi n wenya wanted to go lib n shopping...
ok mayb i not veri keen abt shopping.... but i nid to find a wedding gift as well as christmas gift...
aniway... i was disappointed not to find the prince of tennis comics.... ruyoma *i m not sure of the spelling... chinese is long ma* was so cool n proud.... n it is so funny! i like bu er i tink is fuji sth the best! aniway... i ended up w borrowing a few shaman king comic.... yoh is so nice n funny ... ren is so cute... n anna is so...so cool!

aniway.... half the time we were shopping.... yundan kept gg so fast tt we kept losing her...
n i kinda of in the middle as our p.sala stopped frequently.... n i had to go drag her away....
aniway... i was having fun regardless of my complaints.... we even saw the lifesized pokemon n wenya kept laughing n laughing as she saw them....
i saw the aquamarine in one of the shop that is so beautiful!!! too bad....
i forgot to bring ani $ due to my hastyrush to sch.... can oni blame myself... 555...

N there is sth that made mi veri angry....
there was tis boy out shopping w his mum n brother i tink....
i was waiting for wenya n leaned against the railing then tis boy juz walked nxt to mi...
n threw a piece of sweet wrapper down n it nearly hit someone below....
i was so shocked! i noe juz a veri less than 30cm2 paper but how can some1 eat a sweet n threw the wrapper down from 4th floor... i noe tt it is not dangerous or anythg but there is a big rubbish bin few steps away.... n when he saw mi watching him he juz dun care....
pls lor! at least 10 yrs old alr also dunno nid to throw the sweet into the rubbish bin haiz....

ok... then i nid to go alr as my sis wanted to go northpt n buy spects....
i wait for more than half an hour b4 she appeared n i have so many bks in my bag.... so heavy.....
then we went to the shop.... n try finding a pair she likes....
but after we finally found the one she likes... poor salesgirl....
we decided it is too x... hundred plus dollars lor... i rather save them...
so we went off n go kfc eat zinger meal! well i din bring ani $ so my sis pay... heehee b4 anione so anythg abt being greedy... i liked to say tt is sis bonding....
n then it was raining so heavy n we had to wait... went to walk ard northpt...
not much to see.... hey i lived in yishun till pri six... n yj is at yishun..... so i basically noe the whole place....

haiz.... a tiring day....
tink i will talk abt exams in the nxt post.... now watching vcds.... 小鱼儿与花无缺 veri funny!!!

words.... tsubasa...

well.... so far i havnt been studying....
i have been playing the com....
reading stories on com as well as a bk i borrowed....
n i juz finish watching tsubasa....

aniway... today's tsubasa got quite a few nice quotes....
and it's so touching....

the first one is when sakura asked syaoran... who he is...
i have talked abt it in one of my earlier posts....
tt was when i was reading the comic.... now it's the anime...
it is still so sad....

then fay said he thought syaoran will cry when sakura asked tt...
and he wondered if syaoran is crying now tt he had ran out into the rain...
kurogane juz said who knows... even if syaoran did cry.... it was useless....
crying will not solve anithg so one shd not cry.... and in order to do tt...
one will have to be strong....
but then fay juz said... sometimes you have to be strong in order to be able to cry...

i agreed to it totally it! i mean so what if you cry?
the tears will dry! you might feel so much better if you cry.... and then u stand up again...
keeping everythg inside is bad for health.... you can cry.... but you have to stand up and keep on going even if you are crying.... i tink tt tt is really wad being strong is abt....
it hurts so much to see someone who is so sad n in so much pain yet... is smiling so tt he or she would not make others worry.... it's juz so sad....
it juz so tt the bk i was reading was abt sth like tt.... n it is really sad...
that boy's family became bankrupt n the sole breadwinner of his family is hoptialised...
he skipped sch to work to get $ for his father's operatn n tried his best to support his family....
he refused to talk to his closest friends abt wad was happening n when they found out and rushed there.... he smiled n greeted them like nothing had happened... yet all of them could see that he was veri tired and sad.... i tink it takes courage to admit tt u re in pain? so wad if it takes energy to hide all the sadness n sorrows.... it juz take more energy away....
i dunno but mayb it is better to take a few min to break down n let everythg out... after tt few min... then stand up n try to solve all the prob?... i dunno....

ok.... for another quote....
kurogane told syaoran as the epsiode was almost ending....
don't look down ... look forward.... there are thgs waiting to be done in front of you!

so... i see my pile of cl notes.... so guess there re what i m supposed to do.... study....
ok... i m veri veri lazy!!!! nothing ever get into my mind even if i am staring at the notes....
like i say b4... the notes noe mi but i dunno them.... haiz....
last paper alr!!! muz work hard!!! cannot look down... *down is my keyboard n i am tempted to cantinue to play with my com...* muz look forward... *not the monitor but the pile of cl notes i m supposed to be studying!!!!*

ok.... study study study!!!!!

pics... table...

hey exams still gg on....
n i refuse to comment till it is over....

aniway....
i tok tt my blog is a bit too wordy.... so...
i put in pics of my table when i was studying political science tis morning...
i saw my veri old camera on my table...
so... i played w it :p


the above pic is the top of my study table....
n i noe makona looks like she is dancing ... :P



haiz... i was even drawing.... when studying...

haiz mayb tt's y i cant finish studying.... see how messy it is! tt is the state my mind was in tis morning.....
exams... exams... one more paper to go!!!!