being there...

ok.. cant concentrate cant study...

juz refile all my notes...

a lot of readings!!! all not done!!!

wad have i been doing for the past few months?!!!

haiz... most of the readings were half done...

so i had to reread so i cant recall wad it was all abt...

i m having headache.... so decided to read stories again...

n spent the whole pof my afternoon!!!

i was so stupid... but nothing to be done...

i was reading a story for the dunno how many times by one of my fav authors, sunhawk...

being there... n each time i was so touched...

a story abt how friends helped each other...

this time there's nothing abt war... it is a post war fic... yes another gundam wing fan fic...

n it's abt addiction... a drinking addiction...

how one helped the other to kick the habit...

it's so hard...

n the words said pulled at my heart...

i nearly cried when the one who was trying his best to help succeed in helping his friend but ended up in a depression himself...

n then with his friend who had succeed in breaking his drinking addiction found him... n asked him why he din turned to him after he had done so much for him...

the answer was said in a very small voice... when have u ever been there for mi?...

i was so sad... yeah... why had he been so alone? why had no one seen thru his jester mask? why had everi1 believed in his smiles? all the smiles that never reached his eyes?

a smiling face can cry...

it's juz so sad... yet all these can happen... simple thgs can happen...

n when someone can really understand that's when u found a realli gd friend... but prob is where to find this rare friends? friends that stayed by u when u are upset? friends that noe ur hurt even when u are quiet? friends that will not stay angry with ur rants? friends that can understand n be tolerant of ur insensitivity when u are stressed or upset?

in the story, no matter wad the person do, his friend always stayed by his side...

but in reality how true is it?...

i tink more imptly is how rare can u find such a person...

being there...

can u find someone that's always there by u? someone who u can count on when u are upset?...

it's so difficult...

but then w all this u want...

u have to ask urself...

can u urself do all these...

can u stay by someone's side when they are in trouble? can u cheer someone up when they are sad? can u comfort them? can u detect their hurt n tried to make up for it?

the truth is ... it's so difficult...

everi1 has troubles.. had hurt that needs time to heal.. n u cant do much abt it...

but if u cant do it...

how can u expect others to do it?

the bottom line is that...

friends give n take...

but u cant juz giv n expect ppl to take it...

like in the story... u can expect the person to be grateful to u for helping him to quit by pouring away his beer... u cant expect him to be happy that u are helping him...

in fact thruout it, he told his friend a few times... i hate u...

but if u give in to him... will it solve the prob?

friends giv n take... but u cant expect others to take wad u giv... n u cant expect to take wad others dun want to giv...

juz a balance... sometimes... being there is all it takes...

another thg i love abt the story... n it's wad i found toching is the 5 min...

tis concept is not foreign at all... i had seen it in dn angel, a lot of other stories that i had read...

n i nvr failed to touch my heart...

n i even used it in one of my own story... i din copy!!! it's juz so natural to include it...

5 min... one that din exist...

meaning nothing said or done will be rmb, will be spoken abt or will have consequences...

it's realli sad...

but to have someone u trust to give u this 5 min...

how easy can it be?

being there...