depression

ok a update per week... i heard ppl talking abt pract 2day... someone frm here went to my first pract place... it brought "nightmares" back 4 mi... but it was then i realized tat everithg had passed.... but one thg remained...depression... it was further brought on when we had a talk on wed... about depression... it was then i realized tat during my first pract i might really b gg thru depression... here are the symptoms... this is the website i found about it as well... http://www.helpguide.org/mental/depression_signs_types_diagnosis_treatment.htm
Feelings of helplessness and hopelessness.
~i rmb crying everiday n there is juz plain feelings of suffocation at times... like i cant breathe properly but properly because i was crying?
Loss of interest in daily activities.
~i totally lost interest in all my fan fics n stories... T_T
Appetite or weight changes.
~i tink i lose 2 or 3 kg within 2 weeks... cant eat anithg... used to go for hours wout food if not for xm...
Sleep changes. ~
i tink i was gg on wout sleep for days... sleep comes in sitting b4 my com if not at all...
Irritability or restlessness.
~i m used to crying n easily irriated or agaited...
Loss of energy.
~how to have energy wout fod or sleep but i cant seem to force myself to hav both...
Self-loathing.
~of course w someone saying all those thgs to u all the time... haiz...
Concentration problems.
~cant concentrate at all...
Unexplained aches and pains.
~all kinds of pain... y dun ask mi... from head to stomach to toes... it hurt...

wow n i lasted for more than a month???

guess that's y everyone was so scared i might do sth drastic...
nt to mention the daze n dark thoughts i was having...

then again i m over it... even my cousellor said so...

now though tired but i m happy :)

i will try my best though it means no more procrastinating... haiz...

space battleship yamato

It might be just a faint ray of hope... a small dubious hope... but with our strength...

let's make it into real hope...
it's a really nice show... for a long time, it's the first movie i really wanted to watch. First seen it on tv... regarding the movie production... i had fallen for the cg n the theme... galaxy...
it's a great movie... i loved the way the battles are being portrayed n the characterisation is great...
i think with the situation in Japan now... this is sth really touching...
the heroism, the selflessness as well as the helplessness...
yes the hope is very small... but with that hope they travelled over thousands hundreds of light years... the number of lives lost... the determination...

where is this hope in our lives today? everyday, it seems like i have given up easily... i wished that life is easy... maybe i shd stay stronger be braver n ventured more... do more n gain more... smile through the sweat n tell myself i have given my best... then i will be better :)

this is a show worth watching...

however, i was a bit unlucky in the sense tat the little boy next to mi kept kicking mi n a bit distracting... i tink he's too young to be in the cinema esp watching such shows tat he had no interest in. n it also distract the parents n oher viewers w the way he behaved n like when he wants 2 go to toilet n stuff.. then werid thg is tat he is not seated in between his parents to minimise his "effects" until the later part of the show... haiz...

aniway it is definitely a show worth watching...

it might not have driven mi to tears like the hawthorn tree but it give me a different kind of touch n the hope it inspires...

With hope we embarked on this mission, n real hope is what we hoped to find to bring back a better future for all those we left behind...

voiceless...

haiz realized i fall sick too easily... after the almost "a&e" incident, i lost my voice... my throat n m head hurt... went to see the doc last wed... actually i shd hav gone on tue since mon afternoon i m alr feeling really bad... but aniway... the doc says it's juz a normal cold... n i will recover soon.. so i decided not 2 take mc... until now... i m still coughing n my voice hurts... dun tink the medicine is working but hopefully i can get my voice back soon... cant even sing ani song... :( haiz... pls let mi get my voice back.... if nt i hav to see the doc again... n dun tink i will go back to the same one...