angry?

忽然想起了小时候学的东西。。。
好像是佛教的又好像不是。。。
太久了所以忘了。。。

生气。。。

人家气我我不气，
我若气了中他计。
要是气死没人替，
想想还是别生气。

所以人还是少生气？

results...

haiz... realli realli bad...

i was hoping to do well...

but i tink it is my own fault...

i din even study so who can i blame 4 my poor results other than myself?

then again... how can i study... even if i want to?

4 ssa... that is b4 everithg that happened excpt my stomach cramps...

yes it was on my first day...

real unlucky...

n the qns asked... i din even noe wad to ans...

n i oni got a b-

i had done really badly for my jap...

i got a c... but then i din even rmb the vocab on the day of the exam...

so wad can i do?

blame it on bad timing? i dunno...

it is the first exam i took 1 or 2 days after my grandfather passed away...

the day b4... i was still trying to accept the fact that he was gone...

mayb i m lucky that i din fail...

after all... i din touch the jap thgs b4 i sit 4 e exam...

nm is another which i din study... n worse they changed the format all of a sudden...

it was on the same day as jap... n i oni studied in the lib after i finished my jap paper...

n it was scary because i litterally dead to sleep in the lib n when i woke up i cant see a thg...

tink wenya was shocked by mi :p... sorrie sala... din mean it...

luckily i din do too badly... got a b+ but then that was supposed to be an easy module...

4 chinese hist... i also got b+

but i did studied that the wk b4 but no time to study after due to funeral...

n i shd have done better.... but i din revise too much b4 the test... no time n mood...

as 4 the last paper...

it was the oni when i have time to study but the most difficult module...

due to the fact that everithg iss written in those wen yan wen... as in old chinese language...

the one that is veri difficult to understand...

i got a few days to study for that one but i oni got b- for it...

overall... i din do well...

my cap is oni 3.3 ...

last sem... i din do well as well n it is 3.4...

so haiz... quite bad....

but who to blame but myself...

everithg bad happened to mi at the same time...

veri unlucky... sick...funeral...sad...

haiz...

reflectn:

nvr leave thgs to the last...

not oni exams... but also thgs to be done or said...

do it... say it... or it might be too late...

then all u have will be regret...

now... shd i continue w jap or not...

if i want... i have to start studying now last sem work...

decisions to be made...

self pity...the tower...

haiz... sometimes... it's so hard to keep a friendship...
when u tink that it is easy to build a friendship...
it is veri difficult to keep one...

it is like a tower...
u can buy the bricks...
u can build it higher and higher as time passes...
the closer relationship is, the taller the tower will be...

but then tall tower topples...
when it topples...
everithg falls...
frm friends to strangers?
frm allies to enemies?

those who have fallen...
nid to stand up...
on its own...
help will be appreciated
but independent is necessary...
standing is difficult but necessary...
no one can stay fallen for a long time...
the tower will have to be rebuilded...
but then who will take the first step...

if stay fallen forever,
one might be drowned in self-pity...
so much that one will lose focus of what the world has to offer...
so what if u re sad...
so what if u re unlucky?
so what if u tink u are alone...
so what if u think that the world is against u?
if u re happy...
if u re right...
if u tink that u re not hurting anibody...
then stand... show that u could do it...
n get out of the pool called self pity...
time will pass... n will not stop 4 ani1...
the Earth will be revolving... the sun will always be rising and setting....
so stand n try to rebuild the tower...
or let go n build another new tower frm scratch...

dic... temple...

ok... the pic for the eng dictories n a bk i bought...

the small dic is $1 and the one below is $6

n the tarot 4 urself is $3... bought it at orachard popular... a sale...

ok on last sat... we went to the temple to pray for my yeye...

on the way to the bus stop outside 3m... to take 969 to tampines...

have to walk thru a route like sungei buloh... ok... mayb not... it's beside the canal or large drain or river?... wadever it is called... i took some pics as well...

river? hse...

field...

trees...

more pics... nxt post...

orchard...w cricket n xiaomei...

ok... mit peikiat n xinying to go lib as well as exchange notes today...
popular at orchard having sale...
i spent $10 there...
bought 3 bks...
one "tarot for ypurself" at $3
and 2 dictnaries... one at $1 n the other at $6...
veri cheap!!!

then xinying arrived and we went for lunch at yoshinoya...
student meal...
oishi!!!


took a pic there...
as usual... forgot to take my own...

then we went to lib...
n there is a lot of new bks!!!
esp comics!!!
there's bleach, naruto, yu gi oh, one piece n a lot more!!!
n i borrowed spiral! my cousin lend mi the first few n i found the rest there!!!
i love orchard lib!!!
so happy... gg there again veri soon!!!...
then we went kinokuniya...
as we were waiting for yew mun...
we took some photos...

xinying n peikiat...


mi n peikiat...


we tried n tried... then we finally ask yew mun to take for us...

a trip and a rude phone call...

well... went out with my mother n youngest sis yesterday...
went to sheng song at masiling...
bought a lot of food...
yes... mostly junk food...

we went there intially to look for shoes at the surounding stores
but din find ani...haiz...
we saw at our ex-neighbour there...

when we reached home...
the hse phone rang...
the person was a veri rude...
hopefully it was not ani one of u that i knew...
because my mum was veri angry with the person's rudeness...
n mi 2...
my mum said that the person kept asking her who she is... n why she called...
right after she picked up the phone...
so rude... she kept insisting that someone called her phone...
she refused to say she was juz she demanded to know who called her...
my mum told her no one called but she said someone did...
my mum asked her wad no she was calling n she refused to give the number...
please bear in mind that... we juz reached home lah!!!
haiz pls lor... no self introduction no polite asking... juz demanding ans?
sorrie if i offend someone but phone ettique is impt too...
u re asking qns... ask nicely can?...
n pls at least ask politly if anione called hp or tis no... state the no lah...
haiz...
such a rude and weird phone call... we are not at home who can use the house phone?
oh by the way the whole conversation is in chinese...

ok...i really din want to offend anione but i m upset by tis person's rudeness...

n tmr miting peikiat n xinying...
finally can see cricket!!! so long nvr mit le...

as for the stories... pls giv mi time to transfer the papers into my com...
my typing is veri slow :p
so sorrie... n thanks for supporting my stories...

reflectn?

it had been weeks n i decided to type this...

finally!!!
blogger is ok!!!

a few pics taken frm my grandma's hse...
the scenery seen frm the balcony...
my grandma's hse is at the 9th floor...
so the secenery is actually quite beautiful...

in the day...

at nitex... at the exact place...

a short story of feelings...

It was dark. The moon could not be seen clearly. It seemed to be blocked by something. Dark clouds? Or was it my tears?

There were sobs and sniffs everywhere. No one was talking. There was no words spoken. Yet everyone understood what the other needed. Some time alone. Tears fell, unheeded.

It was too sudden.

Time just seemed to be cut short. His heart just stopped beating. And he’s gone… forever and ever…

It’s just too shocking… too scary…too abrupt… too unfair…

What happened to the time for last words? What happened to the time for one to at least take a last look? What happened? Why? Why did it have to happen…

That’s life. That was the only answer I had. Everyone sat at the chairs outside the room. The room called the mortuary. A place where no one believed he had to visit in a very long time in the future. But we were all here.

It’s difficult to believe he’s gone… yet, he was. Suddenly, everything about him had to be in past tense. He was kind. He was happy. He was… no more he is…

No matter how much one was crying… the elders always took care of the young. Though she was crying, she remembered to ask if we had dinner or supper. She is my grandma. She was crying so hard. She could not control her sobs but she was worried about everyone’s health.

That was the duty of an adult. The duty of a parent. The duty of a grandparent.

It was kind. It was responsible. It was bittersweet.

Days have passed. Time has gone on. The Earth is still spinning. The sun is still rising and setting. Grief has to be let go. Life has to move on.

He might not be returning but that had to be what he wanted, wasn’t it?

eastcoastpics....

ok... went to east coast...
more details at zhui xing blog...
n i did update pursuit of the star ok?... it is at zhui xing blog as well..
now sharing my scenery photos taken that day...
moatly taken by mi n mayb a few by wenya's sis, wenhui...

in the day...




beautiful waves!!!



wish i have written sth there b4 i took this...


at nite...
due to the fact that i m not gd at taking photos w my hp...
i m learning ok?...
it is badly taken...
cant see anithg...

a song to share tutx2

juz recently heard tis song...
the opening song of 名捕震关东 i tink
reminds mi of 豪放词

刘欢的《好风长呤》
每次听你们 喊在千山外
你们的呼唤 我依稀明白
从没见过冰河 你说那的天蓝
马奶酒喝不醉 雄鹰在你肩上飞
一剑荡平阴山的墓碑
一骑独行万里的骨灰
一场大雨淹没的功罪
西出阳关就没人再回
江流千山东 小舟从此终
听好风长吟 望美人如梦
不看明月雄关 不留飞燕玉环
相逢谈笑如狂 别时沽酒在肩上
喝罢黄河之水天上来
酒醒杨柳残月且偷欢
喝罢笑傲江湖祭苍海
雁渡寒潭有几只还高飞

haiz veri tired... hopefully thurs can come earlier...
so i can rest...

new hp tut

ok... sth's wrong w blogger n i can't align or do anithg...
so strange... hope it is not my com...
n hopefully some1 fixed it fast...

aniway... went to causeway tis afternoon
n i got a new hp...

nokia 6288!!!
mine's white...
i love it!!!
although it is a bit big n not really my style
but it is nice...
now can take photos n listen to radio!
n i can send long sms!
oni prob is i have no music n thgs as well as the fact that i lost all my nice sms ...
some i created myself....
haiz...
but stil happy abt the new hp!

exams over... the nxt coming...

well... exams's over!!!

last nite went to amk to get presents...

reached home veri late...

for the whole day today...

i m in front of the com...

no i m reading fan fics...

n trying to continue my pursuit for the star...

1/2 done... n i still got peace knights to continue...

time has passed...

exams' over... but i still veri busy due to my sis's exams...

haiz... 3 more ppl to make sure they pass their exams...

well... a week... though i a bit worried abt my sis...

she miz a few days of sch... n not feeling well...

tis week is the listening n compo...

it is gg to b sat again tmr...

a wk since ye ye chu bin...

sometimes it feels so surreal...

one wk gone...

sometimes still could not believe he's gone...

last time when we left it is "bye bye ye ye bye bye ah ma"

now... it is "bye bye ah ma" oni...

veri weird... n strange...

it still took a lot of used to...

i heard tis song the other day...

a song i like veri much since i received an email w tis song's animation...

郑伊健's 虫儿飞
(电影"风云-雄霸天下"插曲)
词:林夕 曲:陈光荣

黑黑的天空低垂
亮亮的繁星相随
虫儿飞虫儿飞
你在思念谁

天上的星星流泪
地上的玫瑰枯萎
冷风吹冷风吹
只要有你陪

虫儿飞花儿睡
一双又一对才美
不怕天黑只怕心碎
不管累不累
也不管东南西北

how was it? one more wk to go on....

exams... sleepy... tut

haiz... hadnt study like that... still stuck at lect 2...
dunno wad i doing...
got massive headache for the last few days...
legs also veri bad... hurts when moving...
how to study?
haiz...
i din sleep like that....
my mum says tht if i din sleep for a day i nid a few days to catch up...
so far...
i din sleep properly for the whole of last week...
how?!!!
mayb that's why i have tis headache...
cant move... hurts...
haiz....