my grandfather part 3

ok... i m so sorrie, chio hui!!!
i was veri busy with the furneral n exams that i did not have the time to reply to u...
so sorrie!!! gomen nasai...
i m not free till after the second wk of may so i will contact u then?
so sorrie!!!

aniway...2 poems written on wed morning... sharing... on zhui xing blog when i have the time...

lst... a chinese ci...

《踏莎行》 离开

云朵吹散，凄风苦雨。
浪起浪落未平复，昙花凋谢惨凄凄。
他人离开不回看。

泪水滴滴， 以无阻力。
忆起昔日开心事，想起微笑那慈祥。
但为何突然不见了？

ok... the second one is english...

without a word, without a warning,
he's suddenly gone
and all i know it's morning.

never had we been very close
but he had always been there
someone i respect
yet all a sudden he's gone.

without a word, without a warning,
he's gone.
no one believed it's happening.
everyone must be dreaming.
it's just a nightmare n coincedience
that everyone had the same nightmare.

he's gone.

all a sudden he's gone,
forever and ever.
it had to be a nightmare.

it had to be!
it's too sudden...
too abrupt...
too unfair...

my grandfather part 2

ok... let's continue w yesterday?

yesterday was an impt day...
the "chu bing" day... the last day of the funreral meaning...
we had to cremate the body...
b4 the ceremony...
my auntie took us beside ye ye (my grandfather) n talked to him...
saying how we will take care of ah ma n thgs b4 she started to cry...
she had been doing that the past few days n so do ah ma...
she will ask thgs like why did ye ye dun want to wake up or ask us... why he left us so suddenly...
it was so sad...
ah ma will walk n look at ye ye b4 she cried loudly... saying words inconherently...
yes i did say i oni slept for 1 hr that nite or rather day...
i was veri tired... there was a few performance n i nearly fell a sleep then...

we boarded the bus after walking for a distance...
we sat in silence in the bus...
then we reached the place where the crematn took place...
then we were told to watch the ceremony at another room...
it was so sad...
everi1 was crying... screaming even my father...
it was so hard to stop the tears frm rolling...

then we went to the temple n prayed b4 gg back to my ah ma's hse...
yes... i was so tired that i din noe we arrived... n nearly fell down while alighting...
frm there... the adults had thgs to talk so we were told to go into the room n watched tv...
yes... we watched the scooby doo movie... so funny...
n then we went home...

we reached my ah ma's hse at 8am the nxt day to go to the crematn centre to get the bones n thgs b4 gg to the temple n we prayed there n put the urn there...
then we went back to ah ma's hse...
tis time the younger ones got to watch tv or sleep while the rest of us were busy unfolding n folding the banners...
the adults nid to calculate stuff...

all in all... it was tiring...
emotionally n physically...

my grandfather... part 1

hey... so sorrie for neglecting sms...

no... not due to exams...

one tue nite...

i was on the phone w xiujuan when my father received a call frm my uncle...

my grandfather was admitted to the hospital n his heart is weakening...

my dad rushed down, hoping it's nothing...

my grandfather (father's side) had been genki... though he had some ailments other elderys have...

then abt 10.30pm...

we recieved a call frm my auntie...

he passed away...

it was too sudden! i mean no warning or anithg...

we rushed down to the hospital...

i was hoping we are mistaken or sth...

but when my dad came out n meet us with red eyes...

n he led us to the mortuary...

i still denied it...

even when i see his body... my auntie holding his hands

n everi1 crying... n my grandmother screaming sth n sobbing uncontrollably...

we waited somewhere else... keeping veri quiet...

it was too sudden... we stood ard in silence...

ah ma cried whenever someone came n comforted her...

she was even relating how my grandfather was eating a bowl of rice n talking in the afternoon... then they took him to the clinic in the evening when he was feeling unwell... n then to the hospital where he passed away suddenly...

n my auntie cried uncontrollably...

it was so sad...

till it's time to go... all the while w tears rolling down

the nxt morning i woke up...

i was hoping it was a nitemare...

it was juz too sudden...

but it wasn't...

wed i spent the whole time there helping n folding the gold papers that were needed on fri...

i was trying hard to study for jap exam on thur morning...

but i can't concentrate...

i was panicking as i intend to study jap on tue n wed...

n i hadnt started on my jap at all...

tue i was sick... stomach cramps... can't study...

then wed at the funeral... too busy to study...

i have 2 papers on thus n one on fri...

there was a lot of ppl there...

my cousin told mi that my grandfather was a veri helpful person...

at everi funeral... he would always be there to comfort ani1... n to help out...

cousin even told mi that grandfather once took up another job to support his brother's family... when his brother was sick...

grandfather was a kind n helpful person... yet he passed away so suddenly...

nevertheless to say,

i went to take the exams wout much preparatn...

i dun even have time to sleep... how to study?

aniway... did badly for the jap paper i tink...

n nm... they change the struture wout infroming us...

they have short ans!!! what's worse...

i studied frm lect 1-12 in sch...

i got so tired that i couldnt even see the words properly...

scared wenya i tink :p...

then all the short ans frm lect 13!!! the oni lect i din study...

i feel like banging the head on the wall...

then i veri stupid...

came out an hr earlier yet i waited for te others b4 realizing that xiujuan is alr home...

aniway i did some studying 4 my chinese history paper then...

when reached home realized my family were all at the funeral till veri late

so i folded the massive amt of clothes...

n was too tired to study...

so chinese paper did not do well at all...

no time or energy to study...

on thurs nite rushed down after the exams...

we prayed n helped out...

then keep the banners n finished all the thgs at ard 1 b4 settling down to rest...

but then we continued to talk n looked after the thgs till 6.45am b4 we decided to sleep...

but i woke up at ard 8 am n could sleep...

so i oni have 1 hr of sleep the day b4...

ok... veri long... i noe... nxt entry continue?

ssa exams...

haiz... disaster...
i veri scared i fail tis paper...
hopefully not... actually i pray hard not!!!
i cant believe i dunno anithg when i tried to write...
n gp used to be one of my best sub...

haiz... mayb it had to do w the fact that i m having a VERI BIG headache...n stomach cramps?
yes... that time of the mth...
i cant even sleep well last nite...

haiz... bad luck n my fault for wasting time ...
hopefully my other paper will be much much better...
muz pray hard that i pass my ssa...
now thur got 2 paper!!!
one of them is JAP!!!
how can i rmb eveithg? i have no idea...
n fri is ch 2141 which is china history... another one w no idea how to finish studying...
i die le.... T_T

dead...tut

i m so dead le!!!
dunno wad i m doing this wk!!!
i oni finish reading new media readings frm lect 1-5...
n chinese lect 1-2 1/2...
jap lesson 1 n 2 oni...
havent started on ssa...
mon ssa exam le...
tinking of devoting tmr n sun all on ssa....

haiz i die le...
today stomach cramps again...
no wonder i m sick these few days...
cant concentrate...
realize that yyh crossover w hp is gd stories plot...
read a lot!!! but useless for exams....
die le....

veri bad...

ok... i m realli dying....
still stuck at nm...
i realized i dun understand ani single thg abt it...
reading all the readings...
at lect 6 now....

haiz... i tink i getting sick AGAIN!!!
the same thg like keep wanting to vomit then now like gg to have fever...
plus stomache upsets...
had been like that on n off since after chinese new year...
haiz... dunno why....
so difficult to concentrate n my headache getting worse....

some one help!!!...

study... tut

haiz... it's getting closer n closer!!!
i have piles of readings...
panicking!!!
so many thgs to study n i actually can't study...
kept being distracted by my com, storybks n manga!!!
help!!!
study!!!
muz study!!!
haiz...
now few ppl's exams alr started...
gd luck everi1...
mina-san...gan bette kudasai!!!

benshoshimasen....tut

haiz... i m dying...
can't study at all...
finish reading storybks...
3 thick volumes....

so sad...
someone help!
2 thick course packs to finish reading...
5 superthick files to read...
n 3 txtbks to finish....
i die le....

photos... of ta class...

wow!

i realized sth!

even though i did badly for my jap oral test...

i still like my jap tut a lot...

i juz received the photos of my ta class frm wei li-san...

arigato gozaimashita!

jap was fun... even if it was tiring n tough...

grp photos!!!

our sensei is so kawaii!!!

oral exam... badly veri badly done...

haiz!!!!

i m so stupid!!!

i tink i fail my oral exam!!!

now my final exams had to be veri veri gd!!!

if not i die le!!!

haiz... saw jama today...

miz her n all the days at yj....

jama, peikiat, illya, felicia, xinying... like nvr see them nowadays...

haiz... same sch din mit... different schs... even worse...

exams exams exams!!!

they are coming!!!

help!!!

n i got so angry over my jap oral ...

ask mi if i got borrowed bks... i say i din buy ani...

say too fast n too nervous le....

die lah!!!

i even giv up the map cause i dun understand wad the pic is saying....

now i hate jap!!!

die lah!!!

oral coming... tut

haiz... tmr is the day!!!
oral test Tmr!!!
i die le!!!
i m so lost n i m still stumbling over words n adj n verbs !!!

someone help!!!

ashita hachi ji gojufun ni oral test kara...
i die le....

photos.. of tc class...

hey here's the photos of my tc class!
it has been veri fun for the last few mths...
mina-san gan batte kudusai!!!

our sensei n lecturer in the middle...

ok... shashin o torimasu!!!

all the girs!!!

koh-san, tan-san n mi!!! >_<

exile jap last lect...

well today is jap last lect...

m we have a dictatn quiz ...

ok... not a quiz but more for fun...

well since sensei accidentially show us all the answers...

we have to listen to a song n see if we can guess the missing words...

it was actually fun...

n the song was quite nice...

so sharing it here!!!

Tada...Aitakute (I Just...Miss You) by exile...

ok... first the romanji...

Romaji
Kanashii kako mo wakasugita hibi no ayamachi sae

Kimi ni deaete fukai umi ni shizumerareta no ni

Ano koro no boku to ieba ai shikata sae mo shirazu...tada...

Bukiyou ni kimi wo kizu tsukete yasashisa wasurete ita

Tada aitakute...mou aenakute

Kuchibiru kamishimete naiteta

Ima aitakute...wasurerarenai mama

Sugoshita jikan dake ga mata hitori ni saseru

Saishuu densha boku no kata ni kao wo uzumeta mama

Neiki wo tateru nani yori mo shiawase datta yo

Ima naraba sakebu koto mo kimi wo mamorinuku koto mo dekiru

Mou modoranai jikan dake wo kuyande shimau no wa...naze?

Tada...itoshikute...namida mo karete

Kimi no inai sekai wo samayou

Wasuretakunai...kimi no kaori wo mada

Dakishime nemuru yoru ga ah kodoku ni saseru

Tada aitakute...mou aenakute

Kuchibiru kamishimete naiteta

Ima aitakute...wasurerarenai mama

Sugoshita jikan dake ga mata hitori ni saseru

Tada...aitakute

ok the translation from

http://www.kiwi-musume.com/lyrics/exile/asia/tadaaitakute.html

a short disclaimer... this is not my translation or romanji...

My sad past and the days of youthful mistakes

Were submerged in a deep ocean when I met you

Back then I didn't know how to love...I just...

Hurt you carelessly and forgot to be gentle

I just miss you...but I can't see you anymore

I bit my lip and cried

I want to see you now...

I can't forget you

The time we spent together makes me lonely

On the last train, you buried your head in my shoulder

Breathing deeply in your sleep and I was so happy...

Now I can shout, now I can protect you

Why...am I regretting the time I can't get back?

I just...love you...my tears have dried up

I drift through a world without you

I don't want to forget you...the nights I sleep

With your scent in my arms, ah, make me lonely

I just miss you...but I can't see you anymore

I bit my lip and cried

I want to see you now...

I can't forget you

The time we spent together makes me lonely

I just...miss you

a relaxing day...

i juz finish reading a bk i borrowed frm lib...

i like the ending... so sweet!!!

a veri nice n humorous romance story...

n yes... i do read romance story but not like wenya's type of bk :p

p.s. wenya pls dun be offended... juz kidding ... ^_^

peoms...tut

ok... i have been doing a report on both poets in late tang dynasty...
sharing peoms here...

温庭筠

更漏子
柳丝长，春雨细，花外漏声迢递。
惊塞雁，起城鸟，画屏金鹧鸪。
香雾薄，透帘幕，惆怅谢家池阁。
红烛背，绣帘垂，梦长君不知。

菩萨蛮之二
水精帘里颇黎枕，暖香惹梦鸳鸯锦。
江上柳如烟，雁飞残月天。
藕丝秋色浅，人胜参差剪。
双鬓隔香红，玉钗头上风。

his peoms are always abt scenery...
esp... the water, meaning rivers, lakes, oceans or abt the nitex sky... moon, stars...

韦庄

荷叶杯(一)
绝代佳人难得，倾国，花下见无期。
一双愁黛远山眉，不忍更思惟。
闲掩金屏翠凤，残梦，帘暮画堂空。
碧天无路信难通，惆怅旧房栊。

荷叶杯(二)
记得那年花下，深夜，初识谢娘时。
水堂西面画帘垂，携手暗相期。
惆怅晓莺残月，相别，从此隔音尘。
如今俱是异乡人，相见更无因。

i love tis 2 he ye bei...
it was touching...
it is written for his lover...
she was taken frm him by his lord...
n he had written tis 2 n another peom for her...
n the girl was so touched that she stopped eating n drinking n died....